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Motivation, where are you?! I wish Costco would sell it by the bulk, that way I could store it in a cabinet and use it as needed. I am admittedly inconsistent. There’s no other way of putting it. I’m 28 years old and have been struggling with my weight since I was 8. I’m only two years away from the big 3-0 and I hear it’s even harder to lose weight after that!
Healthy is an adjective unknown to my family, exercise
is a verb that I rarely practiced, and insecurity is an adjective that became
synonymous with my name. My weight prohibited me from being an active kid. While
in high school I wanted to join the Choreo[graphy] team, but all the girls were
skinny; no one looked like me. Plus, they would wear skimpy outfits that revealed
parts I did not want to expose. So instead, I took a P.E. dance class my junior
year and discovered that I LOVED dancing and was pretty good at it. This let me
know that I could try-out for Choreo,
but it was my own insecurities that led me to believe that even though I danced
better than half of those girls, they would never select me because of my
weight.
My senior year proved to be a pivotal moment for
me. With prom approaching, my friend and I made a pact to lose weight. We
worked hard, we were disciplined, and dedicated. I still remember the first
mile I ran non-stop…Success! Within weeks I began getting compliments of how
good I looked and at that point I had lost roughly 15lbs. Prom came and went, and
by then there was no turning back! I knew how to eat healthier and what it took
to be fit. By my first quarter in college, I had become a gym member, learned
more and more about fitness and even got a trainer, but unfortunately, my
school was known for its reckless party scenes. I started drinking, partying,
and stopped working out completely but I tried to maintain a healthy diet, at
least compared to that of my roommates, who all seemed to live on carbs!
By graduation I had gained 30lbs! I was
disappointed and mad because I had taken a million steps backwards, but it was my
fault. The first thing I did when I moved back home was join a gym. With time
and effort, I lost he weight and was able to maintain it… for a while.
By the time I started my Master’s program, inconsistency
had won again and my motivation was nowhere to be found. I felt I was too busy
to take care of my body and rarely stepped foot in the gym. Although I didn’t gain all 30lbs back, I was
getting there slowly, but surely. I was back to feeling insecure and lost.
In January 2010, two of my friends signed up to
compete in a triathlon happening in June and somehow I convinced myself and my
mentor to compete. I was completely unfamiliar with triathlons and thought it
was a relay where each of us would complete one leg of the race. I thought, ‘Yes,
I can do the running portion because I love to run. Wait a minute, I have to do
what?!?’
So, of course the journey
was not an easy one, but with the help of my team, especially my mentor’s
encouragement, I learned how to swim correctly, began biking for miles, and
began to run more than my typical 2 miles. I have to say that running our first
mock triathlon was the best feeling ever! A few laps in the ocean (I almost
drowned wearing that stupid wetsuit), about a 10 mile bike ride up and down the
Malibu highway, and my first 4 mile run; all
non-stop. I seriously wanted to cry as I crossed our ‘pretend’ finish line because
Sandy showed up!
June 27th and
it’s tri-time! Game face is on and my nerves are crazy but there’s no turning
back now! This race was not easy but I finished it. I can’t even begin to
explain the feeling I got when I was closer to the finish line and saw my
family, friends, and teammates cheering for me because my motivation was
slipping away. Legs, please don’t fail me now we’re almost there! Yes! I
finished...and lost a few pounds in the process. Call me triathlete now,
please!
I have maintained a
healthy lifestyle since then. I work out pretty consistently, but sometimes my
bad eating habits take over. In the last two years, I have lost 20lbs,
participated in my first half-marathon, become stronger, but I still can’t seem
to get down to my ideal weight. I have worn weary of the same gym routines and have
reached a plateau. Reaching a healthy weight and becoming stronger are definite
goals but the main focus is consistency because after all, I deserve to be
healthy. I’ll be participating in another half marathon a week before my 29th
birthday in October. Naturally, I want to beat my time and be lighter for the
sake of my knees, but more importantly, I want to be a step closer to being in
the best shape ever by the time I’m 30.
I have found my
motivation again and this time I’m not losing it because I have a great support
system and I know I can push myself… hard! My ultimate goal is to compete in the San
Diego International Triathlon. I am Motivated. I am Confident. I am Found. Yes,
I will do this!
This is Sandy's video after her 1st day...
This is Sandy's video after her 1st day...
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